The Purge
Google describes a purge as a "removal of an unwanted feeling, memory or condition." So I found myself going through something long overdue. I have been struggling with my past, it haunts me and it waits for me in every corner of my mind and it is there in every new relationship that I form. Was going through my ex's pictures today and I realised that all this time that I was saying I didn't want to be in his life nor did I want to be his friend, I was just expressing self hatred. I've been pretending for so long that it is all OK and that I am OK, but I am NOT and it is NOT OK. I've been expressing so much hatred for Sihle that I couldn't see that everything that was our relationship, even the end, was deeper than I thought. If I am to be honest the feelings I had for him were exactly how they describe it in the movies, unexpected. I didn't care about being faithful to him in the beginning, we spent a lot of time talking on the phone and I ...