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The Purge

Google describes a purge as a "removal of an unwanted feeling, memory or condition." So I found myself going through something long overdue. I have been struggling with my past, it haunts me and it waits for me in every corner of my mind and it is there in every new relationship that I form.  Was going through my ex's pictures today and I realised that all this time that I was saying I didn't want to be in his life nor did I want to be his friend, I was just expressing self hatred. I've been pretending for so long that it is all OK and that I am OK, but I am NOT and it is NOT OK. I've been expressing so much hatred for Sihle that I couldn't see that everything that was our relationship, even the end, was deeper than I thought. If I am to be honest the feelings I had for him were exactly how they describe it in the movies, unexpected. I didn't care about being faithful to him in  the beginning, we spent a lot of time talking on the phone and I ...
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She is me

HER NAME IS WOMAN HER FACE IS BLACK HER SOUL IS RED HER HEART IS DARK BEAUTIFUL SMART KIND GENEROUS SHE LIVES IN A GLASS HOUSE HER SMILE LIGHTS UP THE STREET HER LAUGH IS LOUDER THAN A HYENA I WISH I WAS HER I DRAW CLOSER TO HER SHE LOOKS AT ME I LOOK AT HER IN THAT MOMENT WE ARE ONE IN THAT MOMENT WE EXCHANGED SECRETS SHE KNEW ME LIKE I KNEW HER HER SOUL WAS ALIGNED WITH MINE HELP! HELP! HELP! HER SOUL SCREAMED HELP! HELP! HER BLEEDING HEART CRIED! HELP! HER TEARFUL EYES WEPT! FOR A MOMENT HER PAIN WAS MINE FOR A MOMENT THE GLASS HOUSE WAS BROKEN FOR A MOMENT I SAW BEYOND THE LAUGH FOR A MOMENT SHE WAS REAL FOR A MOMENT I WAS HER FOR A MOMENT SHE WAS ME HURTING LOST SCARED BROKEN SCARRED TO THE CORE BLEEDING FROM EVERY WOUND TIRED IN THAT MOMENT I SAW HER FOR WHO SHE REALLY WAS AND I LOVED HER AT THAT MOMENT SHE WAS MY HERO AS MY EYES LEFT HERS I KNEW ...
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I SAW YOU TODAY

I SAW YOU TODAY BUT THE YOU THAT I SAW TODAY WAS NOT THE YOU THAT HAUNTED ME   THE YOU THAT HAUNTED ME WAS YOUNG SELFISH WITHOUT LOVE WITHOUT SHAME WITHOUT FEELING   TODAY WHEN I SAW YOU YOU WERE THE GIRL THAT I KNEW FROM BEFORE ONLY YOUR GHOST WOULDN'T LET ME SEE YOU CLEARLY FOR WHO YOU ARE   I SAW YOU TODAY ONLY THE YOU THAT I KNEW HAD DIED LONG AGO   I SAW YOU TODAY ONLY THE YOU THAT I SAW WAS A SHADOW OF THE YOU THAT I LOVED   I SAW YOU TODAY AND I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THE HURT THE PAIN THAT I FELT LOSING YOU BEING HURT BY YOU   SEEING YOU I SAW MY PAST   I SAW YOU TODAY AND ALL I FELT WAS PAIN   I SAW YOU TODAY I SAW YOU TODAY I SAW YOU TODAY I SAW YOU TODAY DID YOU SEE ME?
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As the world Turns

AS THE WORLD TURNS I TOO TURN AS THE WORLD TURNS I TOO AM A VOLCANO READY TO ERUPT I TOO WAIT FOR THE SUN AND THE MOON AS THE WORLD TURNS I TOO BREATHE IN AND OUT WAITING FOR YET ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER SUNRISE ANOTHER SUNSET ANOTHER FULL MOON   AS THE WORLD TURNS THE STORMS IN MY HEAD COME AND GO GO AND COME COME AND GO AS THE WORLD TURNS       
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M-Ther

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Take this second Think Feel Be Be yourself Be who you see in the mirror Be the one you become in the dark Take this moment  Be  the feelings The thoughts  of your person Look in the mirror and see this moment In this moment you are what you see in the mirror
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Catch me if you can dare to catch me when you can When you can I will be there Waiting Hoping Praying When I can I will catch you When you fall on your face When you lose yourself When your stumbling through life When we can We will walk together Knowing That we can
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