M-Bi Revealed

Google describes a purge as a "removal of an unwanted feeling, memory or condition." So I found myself going through something long overdue. I have been struggling with my past, it haunts me and it waits for me in every corner of my mind and it is there in every new relationship that I form.  Was going through my ex's pictures today and I realised that all this time that I was saying I didn't want to be in his life nor did I want to be his friend, I was just expressing self hatred. I've been pretending for so long that it is all OK and that I am OK, but I am NOT and it is NOT OK. I've been expressing so much hatred for Sihle that I couldn't see that everything that was our relationship, even the end, was deeper than I thought. If I am to be honest the feelings I had for him were exactly how they describe it in the movies, unexpected. I didn't care about being faithful to him in  the beginning, we spent a lot of time talking on the phone and I ...

HER NAME IS WOMAN HER FACE IS BLACK HER SOUL IS RED HER HEART IS DARK BEAUTIFUL SMART KIND GENEROUS SHE LIVES IN A GLASS HOUSE HER SMILE LIGHTS UP THE STREET HER LAUGH IS LOUDER THAN A HYENA I WISH I WAS HER I DRAW CLOSER TO HER SHE LOOKS AT ME I LOOK AT HER IN THAT MOMENT WE ARE ONE IN THAT MOMENT WE EXCHANGED SECRETS SHE KNEW ME LIKE I KNEW HER HER SOUL WAS ALIGNED WITH MINE HELP! HELP! HELP! HER SOUL SCREAMED HELP! HELP! HER BLEEDING HEART CRIED! HELP! HER TEARFUL EYES WEPT! FOR A MOMENT HER PAIN WAS MINE FOR A MOMENT THE GLASS HOUSE WAS BROKEN FOR A MOMENT I SAW BEYOND THE LAUGH FOR A MOMENT SHE WAS REAL FOR A MOMENT I WAS HER FOR A MOMENT SHE WAS ME HURTING LOST SCARED BROKEN SCARRED TO THE CORE BLEEDING FROM EVERY WOUND TIRED IN THAT MOMENT I SAW HER FOR WHO SHE REALLY WAS AND I LOVED HER AT THAT MOMENT SHE WAS MY HERO AS MY EYES LEFT HERS I KNEW ...